What shall I do? I have been thinking to myself. Currently things are not going to plan, and I it ain’t half bugging me.
Firstly…. I have noticed how great people are while I lose weight, but as soon as everything goes a bit haywire I get not such great and I have to say potentially damaging comments like, “well I think you’re just getting bored of it now”, “I don’t think you are trying very hard anymore”, “I don’t take much stock in this diet” and “I don’t think you need to eat as much as you are”.
I am not bored of it
I have been trying very hard and I am very frustrated about the last month.
The diet has worked up till now.
If you read the science, (look at my blog BMR and TDEE ) it works and has done.
Anyone who knows me should also know that telling me I am bored of something or am not even really trying anymore normally results in me going “meh you’re right, I can’t be bothered lets go to KFC!”
I am very much the sort that says ok if that is what you think I might as well prove you right, rather than the no I’m not like that and I will fight to prove it. I can’t help it, it’s the way my brain works. After 4 months of brilliant weight loss and increasing self esteem, to have a month of ups and downs really does affect me, and with life generally giving me a mixture of positive and negative things to deal with, the old self esteem and self worth does take a bit of a battering.
So please keep the negative thoughts to yourselves. You can’t be praising the route I have taken when its going well and then slate it or disagree with it as soon as it goes a bit wrong. Again I repeat NO, I have not got bored with it, NO I am not giving up, YES I am trying as hard. I am frustrated and angry with myself and the situation. It is not what I had planned, or the way I wanted to see things go.
Now at the end of my last blog I said I was going to have to have a rethink and regroup. I have been thinking that I might join a gym. There are quite a few around here, and after a few weeks of discussing it with friends and family I decided I would take myself around them and see what I fancy.
Now I’m not giving up the RC classes, but I’m looking at going to the gym before work during the week and poss on the weekend to do resistance training and weights.
When did gyms get so bloody expensive!?! OMG!! I looked at a couple of the big names in Gyms. One told me I would eligible for a corporate discount. Gosh I thought that’s good, and what wonderful low price would I have to pay??? £71.50 a month! SEVENTY ONE POUNDS!! Just for a month!! To use a gym that seemed over run with kids. I couldn’t think of anything worse! David Lloyd I will not be joining you!
The other and most likely one I might join is still £65 a month, and I would be tied into a 12 month contract. I could do a monthly rolling contract but then I would be paying an extra £10 a month for that privilege.
So my questions are why is losing weight and keeping fit so bloody expensive? Can I warrant spending just over £90 (gym & Rosemary Conley membership) a month? Is it really something I can commit to? Am I ready to? Is my health, wellbeing and dreams of a future I dared to dream 5 months ago worth £90+ a month? Will going to the gym make £65 a month difference to my body?? What price do I put on my goal?
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